8/7

2day muet result released...
get band 3...
no more future....
wana further my studies....
wana get the course i wan...
i wan usm...
i wan um...
just wan a better future for myself..
n my family...
form 6 sucks...
ad hardwork...
but get nothing...
should i give up?
im tired...
i rili tired...
who can help me...
born in a medium family...
try hard to let parents have a better life....
so far from my ambition n target now...
where i can go anymore....
hate myself now...
wat a bad result i get...
so pressure now...

5/6/2010

我会记得这一天。。。
5/6/2010...
是继johnny去世后。。。
我人生中最痛苦的其中一天。。。。
也是最颓废。。。。
崩溃的一天！！！！！！

i wan to go...

concert...
2mr nite...
i wan...
rili wan...
almost crying everyday this week...
helpless...
rili...
no one will help me.....
no one....
even him...

adui....

competition bo chance pun....
bee...
thx for acc me go there....
let u disappointed ad...
sory....
noe u saw my blog...
but u didnt n never say anything...
thx a lot...
rili....
thx for giving me time to forget abt him....
thx for loving me....
thx for 4giving me...
thx juz bcoz u dun mind i stil miss him....
sory bee...
adui...
BEE!!!!!
SORY....
i will +u d...=)

(( emo sunday ))

早早起身....
看到一些不该看到的东西....
emo emo emo~~~
如果今天整天都是这样的情绪....
今晚应该会唱得不错吧....
很有感觉...
加油羚....
=)

14/5

bee...i miss him badly today...
sory for not telling u d truth...
bdw i noe u will view my blog...
2day ad two month right??
but within tis two month..
u r not alone in my heart...
u noe right?
actually hope tat u wont view my blog....
including him...
but i think he wont view my blog or even duno i have a blog...
malaysia lose...
i also totally lose ler a...
can let me miss him 2nite?
sunday comp ler...
rili hope tat he can attend...
but...
if he attend i rili can perform well???
i wonder...
ling...
wake up...
no more him in ur mind...
summore dun view his profile again n again...
n see how sweet he n his galfren are...
dun get hurt anymore...
its enough...
please...
dun suffer anymore...
n solve d problem between bee n u now!!!
ling...
i beg u...
ling very tired...
ling ad exhausted...

伪装...

我是这样吗？？

明明很想哭，却还在笑。

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。

明明很想留下，却坚定的说要离开。

明明很痛苦，却偏偏说自己很幸福。

明明忘不掉，却说已经忘了。

明明放不下，却说他是他，我是我。

明明舍不得，却说我已经受够了。

明明说的是违心的假话，却说那是自己的真心话。

明明眼泪都快溢出眼眶，却高昂着头。

明明已经无法挽回，却依旧执着。

明明知道说这样的话会伤害他，却忍着心疼装作轻松的说出口。

明明知道自己很受伤，却说你不必觉得欠我的。

明明这样『伪装』着很累，却还得依旧……